So 20 huh ? Can’t believe after 4 years ago suffer Venous Spinal Cord I’m still here. Ok if you really want to know just google cause I’m tired to explain that.

20 for me is special. 20 is the new journey of my life, journey to be better and better. I’m grateful cause I still can write a blog and live my life.

So I’m gonna tell you a story from my mom. My mom friend had Son who just lost his newborn child, the sadly is that his child died because the mother is never cared about that. When the mother pregnant, she not planned to having child anymore, when she found out she is pregnant, she just doesn’t cared. The newborn child dead because lack of nutrition, and because the mother of the child consume diet pills. Diet pills can cause your womb dry, so just imagine she consume diet pills and the child in her womb tell “Mom I’m hungry I need food, your Diet Pills kill me.”.

This is example about a women who not grateful about life. Not so many people can have a baby, having a baby is joyful.

I’m grateful my mom always love me. She always love me. I’m giving my 100% to love her. Same goes to my dad.

And 1 more thing. My parent give me suprise last night. This is my first cake from them, never had in 20 years I had a cake from them until now. I’m so happy.

THANK YOU! MOM! DAD! I’ll Remember this forever.


Molten Chocolate Lava

So I made this 2nd time. Well it’s my mom fault but I can’t just blame her while I eat all of them, my first Lava Cake was Overcooked, which mean there is no Lava in my Cake. 2nd time we made, we did it. Yayyyyyyy Lava Chocolate melt in your mouth, yumm!!!.

115 grm Semi Sweet Chocolate (Dark Chocolate with little Sugar)
60 grm Unsalted Butter
2 Medium Eggs
50 grm Sugar
30 grm Flour
Rock Salt (If you like,My mom doesn’t like Salty Cake)
Powder Sugar for sprinkle

1. Melt your Chocolate and Butter, You can melt it in your Microwave about 10 second, but I use Boiling Water method.
2. Whisk eggs with sugar until eggs change into yellow pale, I suggest you use Mixer to whisk that cause it’s so tiring using hand whisk.
3. Mix Melt Chocolate and Butter, and Flour into egg, stir until well combine.
4. Pre Heat your Oven into 180 c. Put some Butter and Flour to your ramekin (This is to make your Cake doesn’t stick after Cooked)
5. Bake about 10-15 minutes. For Molten Chocolate Lava Cake, you can’t bake too long, or it would be Chocolate cake than Lava Cake.
6. Serve with Sprinkle Powder Sugar or Vanilla Ice Cream.

Have a nice day.

Anime is not just for Child

I lately feel bored so I watch Anime. Why not ? Is good to watch Anime.

Anime can make you Polyglot. Try watch 3 Anime in 7 days, I bet you understand Japanese even you hate that Katakana,Hiragana and Kanji.

And for those who said Watching Anime is so Childish and then you watch γΈγ‚“γŸγ„ Anime, you are drunk fellas. It’s all about content.

I watch this Anime.


Gintama. Yes Gintama. You don’t know Idea abou this,this is very-very funny.

If you really want to know about this you can click this

I watch this 2 weeks ago and I laugh+cry like crazy, it was so funny. I don’t wanna spoil any to you, just watch.

Dates Spicy Cashew Cake

I make this today. So I had prawn crackers and 2 days ago had Meatloaf and Potato Lasagna.

120 grm All Purpose Flour
120 ml Coconut Oil (You can use any oil or Butter)
120 grm Coconut Sugar
1/2 tsp Cinnamon
1 tsp Shreded Ginger
1/2 tsp Baking Powder
1/4 tsp Salt
2 Medium eggs
Dates + Roasted Cashew (Just how much you like)

1. Mix Flour,Salt,Cinnamon and Baking Powder.
2. Whisk Egg,Coconut Oil and Coconut Sugar until well combine.
3. Add the Flour Mix into Wet mixture. Stir until combine.
4. Add Dates and Roasted Cashew.
5. Pre Heated the Oven 180. Bake the Cake for 20-30 Minutes until the toothpick comes clean.
6. Serve with Cheese Cream or with Cream Angeleise

Mental Breakdown

So I had this issue couple of weeks where I completely breakdown. I decided to write this because It makes me feel stronger to tell you how I feel.

Are you ashame to tell about this ? Absolutely not. Feel grateful and honor.

So it began when I got flashback, something in a past where I feel live peaceful and think that life should be like that, after that my mind start to rebel. They start asking “Did you live your life like that right now ?” I’m starting stress, crying so many times, and thinking too much. I start to stop tweeting but I can’t, still not tweeting but watching all the tweet in my timeline.

That’s a week ago. 3 days ago, my mind getting aggresive to attack me. They said that “You never gonna be happy. You’re going to die soon.bla-bla-bla.” That time is more worse. I’m thinking someone is going to rape me and kill me, so I hide my scicors under my pillow. I’m crying, and the funny thing is I don’t understand why I’m crying. I feel everyone cheated on me, they gonna killing me soon or later or I will die because something.

Quit dramatic right ? I’m sorry if you think that. Every person that I talk always say that, not trusted them.

How about now ? I’m still breakdown of the moment, but watching Mastechef and other cooking show help me alot.

I’m not fasting these day because of that. I don’t wanna crying when I’m doing that.

These week been so rough for me. Thank you wordpress. I’m little bit peace now, I hope I can beat that annoying inside my head.

Ps: I’m sorry my gramar is bad. My tv show teach me bad gramar ;)

Liquid diet and fasting

So I plan this before fasting come. I’ve been fasting for 12 days, until now I’m still not even really fasting. I mean, when I break my fast, I just eat anything and everything. So, this is the moment, I’m gonna do Liquid Diet Fast, which mean it’s detox only drink not eating.

I will do it for one day first. If I’m feeling good, I’ll update.

Lonely wolf

All the buzz is suddenly disappear. The memory that we build is playing in my mind all over again. It won’t gone, I try to forget everything cause my mom taught me to forget any good thing and bad thing, so I can move on to another life, but they don’t wanna go from my mind, they stay like a tea in a bag.

Why they still in there ? I don’t wanna to remember that, cause it hurt me. Everytime I was siting alone, they came like a ghost and I start to go insane. I’m Crying again.

I’m weak. I maybe strong like people said, I might be a wolf like people said, but inside of me I’m lonely.

I am Lonely Wolf.


Almost over

And what about my plan for making a Sport Blog ?

Today Thrusday July 10 2014. 3 days to the final world cup, Germany vs Argentina. I almost cried when see Messi run into Maxi Rodriguez. Football always that good.

It’s been almost a month, what do you like about World Cup 2014 ? I like the rising star like Guillermo Ochoa and James Rodriguez.

I don’t know about my life after World Cup. Should I start a Sport Blog ? Hmm interesting.

Anyway, Let’s celebrate these last 3 days with fun. Yeeeee.

Election (2)

Yay! Today 9 July 2014 is Election day. Which is mean that we allow to chose a president for the next 5 years.

I’m so excited cause my vote can change a whole nation, who ever wins the election I hope for change a better country, I’m honor to participate such a big event.



Btw I’m still sleppy. Yes! Brazil vs Germany, who watch that match ? Such cruel for Brazil. In 11 minutes Germany lead by Muller goal, and then 12 minutes later Germany add a goal by Klose (which make him top scorer all the time in that Tournament) a couple minute Germany lead by 3 goal again in just 3 or 4 minutes! Crazy right ? I know. 2nd half, Germany played respect for Brazil and Brazilian, they add 2 more goal but I think Joachim Loew tell their squad to still play a great football but don’t make them control you, we see in 2nd half Muller played calm not like he hunger for victory (cause they already win) their goal for me it just a chance for add some goal.

Feeling bad for Brazilian, after Neymar injuried they losing something. Hope they can show some Brazilian Spirit in 3rd place match.

To respect them, I wear my Dc Superman Brazil to Election Place, I saw people watching at me like “Ohhhhhhh she wear that and she so brave” I’m just like “Mierdo”

So tonight don’t forget to watch Netherland and Argentina. It’s gonna be good night.

Is that being weird is weird ?

I hear this shit all time.

I called that Awesome.
That’s shame if you don’t understand.

Weird ia the new life from normal and boring life into the life that you feel fantastic. Who agree ?

I see people always talking bullshit about this and I’ll tell you, is not wrong to learn weirdness of people. After you found the people weirdness you gonna asking yourself what is your weirdness. Don’t worry, I called normal, If you’re not feel it’s not normal then think about it.

I found this when I saw an articel about Hajime Isamaya. If you aren’t otaku that so shame. Hajime Isamaya is the Creator of Giant Monster who eat Human, creepy right ? He’s in everywhere lately and I read about him that He collected his nail from 2007, about now we don’t know he still collected it or no. I’m thinking “What weirdness I have ?” My weirdness is I love to smell my pee. Prety gross right ? When I drink water, it doesn’t smell urea, but when I drink a tea or milk, it smell urea and my pee colour is yellow. I’m totaly obsesses with Human body lately, how food can change into feses, how can sex change your body, I just love to learn that lately.

Guess when I talk with my mom about this she just laugh and saying that I’m so gross. My Mom had issue with cleaning, she love cleaning if there is something dirty she will kill me.

That being weird is normal or totaly strange ?

Oh yeah I found this is summer. WOOOOOOOO so excited!!!!!!!